My Little Life

Finally, exams are over!!!!!!! I have officially completed my 1^st year..haha… fuh.. what a stressful one year.. but now its over ady.. hehe.. I just completed my last paper and now I really cant wait to go back to Malaysia… missing my parents and everyone back at home… how I exactly rasa now..? relief… bebas.. or in short.. sudah merdeka la.. haha.. just imagine.. baru habis first year ady so happy… to be honest.. I really got very lazy through out this year la.. seriously.. I dunno why.. there are a lot of reasons actually.. but somehow I managed to complete this one year…. Exams… if wanna think about it also.. aiyo.. really pening la… we practically had an  intensive and tight schedule this year and we had to do banyak last minute revision..

Okay.. let me start with the education system here… the grading here is simple

5- excellent

4- good

3- satisfactory

2- fail

Our first exam was organic chemistry. Oh my god.. this was the toughest chemistry that I have actually studied.. imagine we have to hafal so many structures and also the theory. My god.. the thing is that we will be hafal-ing the structures from the first few chapters.. then when we proceed to the ending chapters.. we will tend to forget the structures that we had earlier memorized… and plus the theory… aiyo.. really so susah.. practically during examination time I didn’t eat properly.. I admit that I practically ignored my health.. but dunno la..im memang like that.. susah nak makan .. haha.. well.. coming back to this chemistry exam.. our seniors used to tell us that chemistry is the most toughest exam.. they said.. kalau lepas chem… bagaikan dah lepas first year. From here, I can conclude that chemistry is gonna be tough.. studying hard and burning midnight oil I was really worried about this exam.. plus my chemistry teacher is the lecturer paling strict in chemistry department.. we had got lots to worry.. that’s why when im studying halfway.. my fikiran will lari and will think about how the teacher gonna mark, how is her mood when marking and so on… but I continued.. memorizing and trying to do my level best… studied on the  refrigerator which is located at my floor’s hall.. weird.. but I really need to get the proper studying environment in order to focus and study. Tea really helped me to keep me awake the whole night.. I remember the pressure that all of us had was just too much that we cant memeorize so many structures and also the theory questions.. I decided to just do my level  best.. didn’t sleep that night… at about 6am.. I vomited.. tak boleh tahan.. I dunno stress or pressure..or what but I just vomited… I was so scared.. I really hoped that I can answer well and get questions that I can really do.

Ok la my soalan.. can answer.. but the problem was I thought that the exam will end at 11.30am but I was wrong.. the exam ended at 11am. The problem was I almost forget to answer my multiple choice question as I thought that the exam akan end at 11am.. thank God that I happen to ask one of the teacher when requesting for extra blank papers to finish my last theory question. So, I was in a rush actually for my objective question.. but somehow I managed to complete it. As usual, after exam I memang will be so so worried. But I orayed so hard.. results next day at 12pm. Aiyo.. memang nak terhenti my jantung la.. so worried.. we went to university around 12pm. By the time we reach.. result memang dah out. One by one was passing us, but then we just told them not to tell us the results. I was so worried.. saw the results.. I got 5. Happy or sad? Hmm… I was so sad.. it was so unfair.. My best fren got a 4. But actually he deserve to get the 5.. its so unfair.. he made some small mistakes which made my teacher not to give him a 5. really cant be happy when

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fren did not get what he or she wanted.. all we can do is pray harder and try our best.. the rest we leave it to God.

Next paper was Latin. Less tension actually.. there is actually a 3 days gap between each subject. Me as usual lazing around for the first few days.. studying little only. Actually many of them will start revising bio during this three days because latin not much to study. But saya… so malas.. bio never touch also and studied latin sikit sikit. The day before latin as usual la tension, burn midnight oil and finally the day came. My question card consisted a susah term to be translated.. I never come across the term before. What to do? i praying hard that I should remember… suddenly I remembered and quickly wrote it down.. but tak sure la. Again after the paper I was scared… latin is not tough but then you cant make more then two mistakes, even if it is a very minor mistake. Results were to be out one hour later.. thank God.. I got 5 again.. my teacher was really strict.. out of seven students in my group only 3 got 5… they are Nadzrul my bes fren, Nicole and me, the lazy student.. haha..

Latin was over and now comes the worst paper next, biology. Seriously there is a lot to cover.. these include cytology, genetics, parasitology, ecosystem and so on. I really didn’t wanted to waste any of my time as I know that its really a lot to study and cover. I had only three days to do all this. My semangat pula semakin luntur and I seriously dunno what to to. I couldn’t cover the ecosystem and biosphere. There are altogether 117 questions that we have to study. 117 is not little… a lot. Really suffered. Plus its really menakutkan when it comes to the examiners. This will be my first oral examination as my previous 2 papers were in written form. I could only do what I can. Practically I had another 10 questions from ecosysytem that I did not cover. Hoping that I can use my general knowledge, I went for the exam with 10 unprepared questions. The atmosphere in the examination room was really intense. There were 3 examiners. They were Rogov who is also my own teacher, Diana, and also Nikitin. According to previous experiences by our seniors, it is learned that Nikitin gives a 5 easily, whereas it is difficult to get 5 under Rogov and Diana. However, the scenario changed this year. None of the 3 teachers were giving 5. Everyone who was coming out from the examination room was getting a 3 and 4. My God!!!!!! This is the first time that it was happening like that.. the quality of students this year has dropped.. memang menakutkan. I memang tak nak masuk dulu.. I was going through all my questions again and I completed my 10 questions while waiting for my turn. Actually u can enter when u are ready. One by one was entering and I was flipping my notes and practically I started to lupa what I had read. That was even worse. Worse case even, Nikitin was also strict in giving a 5. Out of so many students who answered with him, only one managed to obtain the 5 from him. This made me even nervous. I couldn’t take it and I just entered. Seriously before I entered the examination room, I was ready even for a 4. I entered and picked up my question card. Every students gets a different question card. So practically luck played a major role. I had easy questions. But that doesn’t guarantee u a 5 as u need to present it very well and convincingly to impress the examiners. We were given about 20 minutes to prepare before we could present our answers orally. Interesting but scary. Finally my name was called. I got Rogov, my own teacher. But its really scary because he will ask many weird questions and if u don’t know the answer… that’s it! U wont get 5. I was nervous to answer with him. but I answered my level best. He asked pelik soalan also. I just answered what I knew. He gave me a 5. Happy or sad? Of course sad… the same situation melanda my bes fren. No happiness.. I just felt that system here is unfair. This is mainly due to the fact that all of us get different questions and we get different examiners. So, it’s unfair as some examiners are strict and some okay and some pilih kasih. I just felt that I just completed what I should as a 5 or 4 doesn’t determine the real potential of you. So, next is physics.

Many problems came during this paper till my concentration always lari wan… nothing to say.. I almost gave up…no motivation to go forward. Many days I wasted by sleeping and reading little. When the final day came, I realize that I had many things to complete. The day before the exams I had to cover a lot. I always believe that when u think that u can do it, u definitely can do it. Kita kena actually percaya kebolehan diri… tapi kita tak boleh terlalu confident. We should always try our best, da rest leave it to God… that’s my prinsip. I pushed myself by motivating myself every single moment to achieve success. Thank God… that I managed to prepare myself. I dunno if good or not, but somehow I completed studying all the chapters. The day came… and I was as usual nervous and scared. There are 3 examiners. They are Verstakov who is so strict, Denis who is safe to answer and also Svetlana who is my teacher and who is also very famous for questioning a lot. I dunno what to say because it was not fair at all. Those who answered to Verstakov, no matter how good they were, he only gave a 4 or a 3. one of the mangsa was my bes fren. Really not fair. I was a bit lucky as I answered to my own teacher, Svetlana. I got a 5. I would like to say here that the education system in

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is NOT FAIR at all. It mostly depends on your luck. Practically, for me though I had all 5’s, I’m not happy at all. I really hope that they will change the system here.

I would like to wish congratulations to all my frens no matter what they got, I think all deserve the 5. everyone worked very hard and I think everyone is excellent students. All the best my dear frens… u guys are always the BEST!!!!!!!!!

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